March 2009 - CLEMENTINE
Unfortunately music styles like heavy rock or metal are still male-dominated, although bands like Girlschool, P.M.S. or The Runaways have proved that women can also unleash an amazing and untamed blend of rock 'n' roll. BOTTOM from NYC was another great all-female band, which created their own relentless and powerful sound, but sadly the band split-up in 2005. One of the original member is drummer Clementine, who didn't take a rest after that musical episode in her life. She was one of the co-founder of ZEPPARELLA and meanwhile Clem is trying something new with her project FRANCIS BAKIN, which doesn't have a lot in common with hardrock. So it was absolutely necessary for me to feature her work in the Cosmic Lava and to bring her creativity into focus.
Now it's eight years ago since we did our last interview, Clem. At that time you were in BOTTOM and your second album 'Feels So Good When You're Gone' has been released in May 2001. Since that interview a lot of things have changed, and maybe the most incisive one is that BOTTOM split-up in 2005. That was really a surprise to me, because you've played hundreds of shows in the USA and you've also done a tour here in Germany. So what was the reason for the sudden end of your band?
Well, as most band breakups go, it was a combination of divergent musical paths and a breakdown of interpersonal relationships. It was heartbreaking and painful and I'm sure the ocean of bad feelings still remain. We were a passionate, difficult group on stage and off. The day I decided to leave felt unreal and like a sudden death. It just became apparent in a thunderbolt moment that it was never going to work again, and I needed to end the struggle. Not to minimize the weight of it, but there just ain't no drama like girl-band drama. It sucked. I believe that Sina is continuing to play as BOTTOM, with another rhythm section. But I'm not sure.
The last album was 'you'rNext', released through Small Stone Records in 2005. I can imagine that it was a big surprise for a lot of your fans, because it was a radical departure from your old sound. Well, there are still a few heavy riffs to find and a few conventional structures, but as a whole it was very experimental with its slight folk touch. I still like that album, because it's always a risk to open new doors. What was the bands intention to record such an album, and how was the recording process? Did you improvise a lot?
I love that you like that album, because lots of people HATED it. We dug it. We were in this window of time where we caught the feeling we had in the beginning, of inventing ourselves and feeling like anything was possible. Like it was us against the world. BOTTOM always did best when we had a common enemy, and that feeling carried us through a lot of rough times. That record was like an exploration of all the things that had brought us to where we were. It was recorded in a handful of days, and we improvised a lot of it in the studio. That process was surreal; we were in a very fragile, magical state. I guess the scales were tipping us towards continuing or not, but we didn't know it. We were breaking out of the rather tight musical constraints we'd put ourselves in and being pulled all over the place. I guess we were being pulled apart, so that's why it's so all over the map. Should have been called: Songs While Being Pulled Apart Limb from Limb. Anyway, I'm proud of it, but can't listen to it.
When you look back at your time in BOTTOM, how do you evaluate this musical chapter in your life? Is there anything you would change if you could or are you pleased with its entire course?
I really hate regrets, but I have quite a few with that band. I guess the most tangible one I have is that we had several offers from producers and companies to help us, and our egos always got in the way of taking the help. I wish we'd just done it all. As a female band, we were so afraid of losing who we were to someone else's vision, and we ended up doing that ourselves, so what would it have mattered? And I really regret not being able to stop the disintegration. I'm never good with endings, and as in most of my breakups behaved like a jackass a lot of the time, being reactive and not able to solve the problems. Hindsight is always 20/20 I guess. But above all, I'm really proud of that band. I had the opportunity to do those incredible tours, the 11-month one in 2000 especially, and the band made me the kind of drummer and songwriter I am. And to find two other people who wanted to live and breathe the road the way I do, well I'll miss that forever and doubt I'll find it again.